totally different

suda lama tidak singgah di sini da skrg ak ase ak da lain la :O
uhuhuuhuhuh~

kawan ? sahabat ? ada lg ke smue tu tok ak dr dorg ??

did i do something wrong at them ??
did i hurt their feeling ???
did i do stupid mistake again ?? again n again ???!
AM I USELESS FOR THEM ???!
actly i dont understand them la. REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND.
i am hurt just now. really2 hurt ! feel like im not supose to be with them anymore..
i know im not the BEST friend tht their have EVER. im JUST 'SI BUDAK KEPALE ANGIN' for them.
im JUST 'SI BUDAK JANTAN' for them. n im JUST 'si budak yg tak bwk ap2 pon kalo ad gn dorg. ad, lg bgos takda, kalo takda, tersgt la bgs' may be :(
i konw tht. i try to chnge my atitude, im try to be THE BEST for THEM. TRYING TO BE THE BEST.
but wht i have is.. THEY JUST IGNORE ME :( like im not at here. not at the same place with them. im just the whisper. cannot see. so funny rite. but thts me for them.
but i dont understnd la..
DID I DO A BIG MISTAKE AT THEM ? if yes.. WHAT ????
i do my best for them. THE BEST.
i also have a feeling, i also have a tears to cry. i also a girl tht have to wear a pink colour. i also a girl tht have a sensitive feeling. IM NOT A BOY ! IM A GIRL. MY NAME IS RAFIDAH BINTI BAKRI, NOT RAFIDZ B.BAKRI.
but i know im look like a boy, but inside, im a girl, truelly A GIRL.
i love my fren, i miss my fren :(
tp ak da tak tahan pendam rase, pendam pasaan, bersabar, senyap, gn smue ni.
ak penat gn smue ni, penat jadi mcm ni. takpela. bia ak bwk diri, bia ak yg pg. sbb ak taw. korg tak pena perlukan ak. takpe. ak tak kesa, ak tak mara, ak tak dendam n ak tak benci pon kat korg. ak just terlampau terasa hati gn sikap korg. ak senyap sbb, ak bia kan smue tu. tp ak manusia jgk. ad pasaan kecik ati, terase ati. sbb ak pon ad ati, bkn korg je ad ati. ak da bnyak kali pjok ati ak sndiri. ak ak da tak larat nk pjok ati ak ni.. da bnyak da kesan luke yg ak tmpal sndiri. bia la. ak bwk diri. takpe, pas short sem ni, korg ad mase 6 or 7 bln tok LUPEKAN aku, bdk kepala angin ni...
but
I WILL NEVER FORGET U ALL N OUR MEMORY TOGATHER.
thts my promise.
BECOUSE, mcm mane pon kawan ak tu, dye tetap kwn ak smpai ble2. walau ap pon da pena tejadi antara ak gn kawan ak tu, ak TETAP anggap dye kawan ak smpai ble2. SEBAB KAWAN TETAP KAWAN.
KAWAN SAMPAI MATI. KAWAN SKRG NI TAKKAN KTE DPT KALO KTE KWN GN ORG LAIN. PUSING LA SATU DUNIA CARIK, TAKKAN SAME GN KAWAN YG INI. AKAN ADA LAINNYE. TAKKAN AD YG SAME.
n ak akn ttp suke tolong kawan ak tnpa pk untok kpntign ak sndiri. n ak takkan pena mintak balasan. even THANK YOU. bg ak, ak akan ase puas kalo da tlng, n akn ssh ati kalo tak dpt tlng.
thts me RAFIDAH BINTI BAKRI.

short sem oh short sem !

ak boreng la.. mmbe2 ak smue tak dtg lg.. dala tga kering nk kua pon takley.. adoi..
lg satu, ak tak taw nak amek dua pper or satu je.. camne ni.. pening2..
hope sgt2 smue pper yg ak jwb final ai2 lepas.. hope sgt.. amin....